Life is complicated ... Isn't it?

Well ... Where do I start?

I think no one cares about the following stuff but I don't really care. I just wanna clean up my brain!

Now it's been one year since I've lost my precious heart and till today I'm sad about it and don't know where I could get exactly the same one. On the other hand ... Somewhere I still hope that someone will give me the heart. A new one that I can care about. Since that day I don't really feel ... Happy. Maybe there were some moments of true happiness but not for long.

No one really cared about it and I'm a little disappointed that nobody really did something to comfort me ...

Little by little I feel dead. Don't care about things and so I've lost my sensibility for feelings. 

Furthermore ... There are two people that share the same heart as mine and I'm scared that  I've had lost my connection to them. I know this words are stupid but I can't do anything about my thoughts ...

But there is still more that confuse me!

It's been one year since I've met with someone, too. The person didn't feel well and I've tried to comfort him on this day. We known since many years but didn't really talk to each other. We became really good friends. And now he's leaving again. 

I don't know what to say or maybe a farewell gift? I don't like it if some of my friends leave me... I can't handle this situation. I know that I will regret it if I don't do anything ... Cuz it is always the same game. I ruined many things in my life with such situations.

I feel kind of lost ... Don't know what to do anymore? Don't know who I can talk to because everyone had their own problems!

Once I was full of myself and believed that I could do everything but since I've lost it I'm scared and don't really sure about my actions.

The following days will show me what will happen ... Well this is a stupid sentence but who cares?

But maybe there will be some big changes in my life because a good friend leaves me. And in the near future another one will leave too...

I know that this are stupid problems but this are MINE problems and MY world. 

Well ... If someone read this thanks for listening or reading. Maybe you will listen to me personal if you ask me.

Hope that you will comfort me and built me up. I need a strong shoulder on this weekend ;D and a NEW heart!